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This quote is so inspiring! Instead of doing my homework, I’ve decided to let you in on the goals that I have for my life in this season. Some of them are things that need/will be accomplished very soon, others might take a lifetime to accomplish. Here are my top 12 things that I want to do to not only live the length, but the width of my life. 

• Live a healthy lifestyle and feel great about myself!
• graduate college.
• volunteer more! (can you say Girl Scouts leader?)
• find something I’m passionate about and pursue it!
• meet a bunch of new people, and listen to their story.
• get involved in a bible study.
• get married to my dream guy. (Jesus lovin’, tattoo wearin’, beard havin’ hunk of a man please!)
• be a mom of beautiful children.
• travel across Europe.
• Spend time in Central America spreadin’ the love of Christ.

What are the things that you most want to accomplish in life?

my heart, it hurts.

When I think about the influence that my life has in the people's lives around me and the people that I love most in this world, I like to think that by the grace of God that I'm doing a good job. But when I stop and really analyze what kind of life am I really living? Am I living up to the gifts and callings that God has placed in my life and in my heart? Am I intimate enough with Him that I hear his voice as clear as a whisper, and a gust of the wind? Is my light shining bright enough that it radiates the love of God? Do I share the grace with people nearly as much as my God shares with me? Today I've read and seen some things that have been absolutely heart wrenching. I thank my Savior that I don't have to experience certain things that others have to go through, and I thank God that He shows me grace and mercy every single day. I thank God that He called me out, He gave me a purpose, He sacrificed it all for me. Now it's time to step out.


If it's my desire to go the nations and spread the Gospel, why am I not practicing here? Why am I not showing grace and mercy to the people in my city? Why am I not being a missionary to MY nation?


When my heart had been gashed today I took refuge in these verses.

"‎13 for it is GOD who WORKS in you(ME) to will and

to act in order to fulfill HIS good purpose. 14 Do

everything without grumbling or arguing, 15 so that

you may become blameless and pure, “children of God

without fault in a warped and crooked generation.”

Then you will shine among them like stars in the sky".

                                                                                                            -Phil 2:12-15

It's always so good to remember, that it is HIM through me, not anything that I do on my own that can fulfill His good purpose. Nothing I can is ever going to be enough, but it's what I give Him to work with that He's going to use to bring Him glory.

My favorite part of this is "then you will shine among them like stars in the sky." When we do our part, we are going to be radiant. We are going to shine through in the darkest nights. We are going to be seen in a crowd, and we are going to have many many more opportunities to help save lives and to help fulfill His purpose. So reassuring.

to be quite frank..

I'm sick of people telling me what I should do. Honestly I could care less if you have "experience" and I appreciate when you give me advice when it's asked for. But otherwise I'm not  going to do what you "think" I should do just because that's your opinion. I have my own thank you. the end.

I'm a mess.

Literally. Like a Hurricane. I hate that I can walk into a room and leave 2 seconds later leaving behind me a huge cluttered mess. I guess that just echoes how my mind looks.

I'm a serious introvert. These past 3 or 4 weeks I have done absolutely nothing but pretty much go to work and sleep and do the bare minimum of school work. I haven't even been to church because "I Haven't felt good" "I woke up late." But mostly it's because I just didn't feel like it.

I feel like 99.9% I am extremely responsible, and I care a lot more than most people about things that they probably don't even notice. Sometimes I just want to be irresponsible and see who cares enough to notice.

I don't even know if this is healthy, but I feel like I HAVE to do this at least 2-3 times a year or else I'll lose my sanity.

But now it's time to get back to the real world. To get back to church. To get back to my relationships. Because if I'm like this for too long I lose myself. & I'm just too good to lose.

thanksgiving :)

Since my family (besides mom, dad and brother) live so far away, Thanksgiving is not really something that my family makes into a huge ordeal. When we're in California (I think it's been 10 whole years since we've actually been there for Thanksgiving) we all gather at Grandma and Grandpa's house for lunch and just spend the day hanging out and doing nothing... here at my house: we typically sit at the table awkwardly for that 20 minutes that it takes to get full and end up going our own ways. Some people may think that's sad.. but for us it's normal.. we love each other in our own way and Thanksgiving for the Zamora family is just a day where we get to relax and be who we are without any limitations. 

Although this year it's pretty sad because my dad can't be with us since he's up in N.C. and Rich will be somewhere tomorrow.. it's mostly going to be mom and me... doing nothing. I like that idea. I like the idea of just being for one whole day. I don't even know how to sleep in anymore. & in the late afternoon I get to go spend the rest of the evening with awesome friends.

I am so thankful for my family and the journey that God has brought us through. I am so blessed beyond words. I am blessed by the friendships and relationships that God has brought to me in this past year and the relationships that he lets me keep and the ones that flourish as the years go by. I am thankful for amazing jobs that allow me to be an example of Christ's love for us while getting to hang out and play with some pretty cool kids all day. I am so blessed by a church and church family that I have at Epoch. There are just no words to express how blessed I am and how thankful to my Creator, my Lord and my Savior. I'm so excited to see what is to come in the next year. Happy Thanksgiving! Gobble gobble.

Goals for November/December.

I'm really really really awful about setting goals for myself, and never meeting them. Although this year I am actually taking Spanish lessons to speak fluently for when I go to Mexico and talk to all the cute boys and help lead them to Christ ;) so that's a start!

My goal for the end of this year is to make attainable goals and complete them! So here we go!

1. finish my Apologetics Class strong (I need an A!)
2. lose 5 lbs... honestly this isn't that hard (Just sayin')
3. Spend more time outside (especially with Vayden, it's not good being cooped up in the house all the time, and there's a park right around the corner)
4. Save an entire week's paycheck for missions! (This'll probably be the hardest for me!)
5. Keep my room clean for the entire month of December (I'm so messy!)


and there it is, there's no way that I can't attain every one of these goals

my mom.

Let me tell you about my momma, there is no one quite like her.

She makes me feel better on my roughest days.

Makes me laugh at the silliest things.

Makes faces at me when I'm being a little outrageous.

Makes sarcastic comments at everything I say.

Has the sweetest spirit and the quietest manner.

Is the strongest lady I've ever met.

& she gets better and better as I get older.

I am so incredibly thankful that the Lord has blessed me with such an amazing woman as my mom, I couldn't ever imagine a day without her. <3 Love you mom!