worn out.

I am just plain worn out, why? Because I've been neglecting one of the most important things in my life, nurturing my spirit. 


I haven't been reading my bible. I haven't been allowing God to fill my cup once it runs empty. My attitude stinks. & I haven't been loving God the way that I was made to, not even the way that I want to. I find excuses not to go to church. I let little things get to me & all I want to do is lay in bed all day and do nothing.


I just want to slap myself. What is wrong with me? I should be preparing for my future and living up to the calling that God has for me. I have to keep reminding myself that He is going to supply all that I need and I definitely can't do this on my own. If I'm not going to allow Him to work in my life, how in the world is He going to allow me to go and be a vessel for His glory in other peoples' lives?


I'm so great at pushing people away and pushing until they're no longer around by just not being available. But I'm asking please don't give up on me. Don't leave me alone. I need people in my life who are going to make an effort and be relational with me. I need people who are going to break walls down to get to me. But mostly I just need to let my Savior wrap me in His arms and nurture me. I need to sit at His feet and listen to all that He has for me. I need to be intentional with spending time with Him. I need to be who He's called me to be.


EPH 4:1-2
 ¹ As a prisoner for the Lord, then, I urge you to live a life worthy of the calling you have received. ² Be completely humble and gentle; be patient, bearing with one another in love.